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the perils of creation
I haven't written anything in so long, and there's honestly nothing for me to write about, but I'm itching to have something written, to have something to do. I'm so bored of cycling through days of watching content and talking to people. I so desperately want to create, but I have no idea what I want to create for.
I think that's my biggest problem - the beginning. I know that's sort of cliche in the sense that everyone famously has trouble starting, but...I don't know. I just don't know how. I have a hundred or so half-finished projects I could begin, but each of them feel so daunting. Really, any story-writing idea feels so....intimidating. Like if I begin it, I'll be forced to finish it, and I don't have it in me right now to tell a whole story. Rereading old work feels wrong, because I always always always hate everything I have written in the past, even I merely wrote it an hour ago. So trying to pick up from a piece that I gave up on half a year ago feels like I'm just working on a project that's doomed to fail.
I've recently taken on the role of a dungeon master, but the world-building aspect of that somehow feels even more mentally draining than writing something by myself. I've never been particularly strong at plot, so I fear my campaign will be boring and aimless and something my players won't like.
I'm stuck. I keep stopping myself before I can even begin, but I want to begin oh so badly. I have this need to write, this craving to write. I know it. If not write, then create something, but I need to do it. I can't keep consuming content - I need output. I just wish I knew what, and I wish I knew how.
Hopefully, this is a good place to start. Not too daunting, not too time-consuming, but just enough to get my toe in the water and either satisfy that craving or even start a springboard into larger projects. I'm not sure what yet, but if I don't write something I'll go crazy, so I guess I might as well write this.
I think that's my biggest problem - the beginning. I know that's sort of cliche in the sense that everyone famously has trouble starting, but...I don't know. I just don't know how. I have a hundred or so half-finished projects I could begin, but each of them feel so daunting. Really, any story-writing idea feels so....intimidating. Like if I begin it, I'll be forced to finish it, and I don't have it in me right now to tell a whole story. Rereading old work feels wrong, because I always always always hate everything I have written in the past, even I merely wrote it an hour ago. So trying to pick up from a piece that I gave up on half a year ago feels like I'm just working on a project that's doomed to fail.
I've recently taken on the role of a dungeon master, but the world-building aspect of that somehow feels even more mentally draining than writing something by myself. I've never been particularly strong at plot, so I fear my campaign will be boring and aimless and something my players won't like.
I'm stuck. I keep stopping myself before I can even begin, but I want to begin oh so badly. I have this need to write, this craving to write. I know it. If not write, then create something, but I need to do it. I can't keep consuming content - I need output. I just wish I knew what, and I wish I knew how.
Hopefully, this is a good place to start. Not too daunting, not too time-consuming, but just enough to get my toe in the water and either satisfy that craving or even start a springboard into larger projects. I'm not sure what yet, but if I don't write something I'll go crazy, so I guess I might as well write this.